"Two weeks ago news broke that Alex Rodriguez, arguably one of the greatest baseball players of our generation, took steroids in 2003. If you don’t follow sports, this was a huge deal. It's the equivalent of say, Samson using performance enhancements or finding out that David had used a pistol on Goliath instead of a sling.
That a professional athlete used steroids isn't that interesting to me, but in his confession interview with Peter Gammons, Rodriguez said something really revealing. When asked why he did it, when asked why after signing the biggest, most lucrative contract in baseball history for $252 million, he risked it all by taking steroids, he replied:
'When I arrived in Texas in 2001, I felt an enormous amount of pressure. I felt like I had all the weight of the world on top of me, and I needed to perform, and perform at a high level every day. Back then, it was a different culture. It was very loose. I was young. I was stupid. I was naive. And I wanted to prove to everyone that, you know, I was worth being one of the greatest players of all time.'
He wanted to prove to everyone that he was worth being one of the greatest players of all time. That when the Texas Rangers signed that $252 million contract, Alex Rodriguez was worth it. He wanted the fans and the owners of the ball club and people that watch him on television and journalists and anyone that ever came in contact with him to believe he was worth it.
He wanted to know that he was enough.
The unfortunate thing for me and Rodriguez is that no one on the planet is going to be able to tell us that to our satisfaction. Not a stadium full of fans, not every coworker I've ever had. Not a sports journalist. Not my web traffic or technorati ranking or eventual book sales.
That's the problem with asking other people to tell us we're enough. They can't. They didn't make us. They didn't knit us in the womb or imagine us thousands of years before our parents danced at the Enchantment Under the Sea Dance. (That's Back to the Future reference number two for those playing along at home.)
Even our friends and family members, the people that know and love us best can’t satisfy the deep desires of our heart because they didn't put them there. They don't know where they're hidden or even know what this crazy work of art called 'our lives' is supposed to look like.
And when we ask other people to tell us we're worth enough we end up doing crazy things. Like taking steroids or lying in bed awake at night wondering why your name wasn't on a Microsoft Outlook Meeting Invite.
Fortunately for you and me and Alex Rodriguez I went ahead and asked God if we were all worth it. He said 'yes.' He said He sent His Son because He wanted us to know how very 'enough' we all were. He said to feel free to ask Him that same question yourself. Go on, I dare you to. I promise that regardless of whether you're one of the greatest baseball players that ever lived or a stay at home mom that feels invisible sometimes, the answer is going to be yes."
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Wondering about our worth
Jon Acuff has an insightful and somewhat humorous post on seeking approval: