That I would be good

That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you

I heard this song about a year ago for the first time. It's by Alanis Morissette. It speaks to the longing we all have to receive validation, to know we are loved and accepted even when we look and feel unlovable. I'm thankful tonight that God sees my filth, more clearly than I or anyone else could ever see it, yet because of Christ, He still loves me and approves of me more than I will ever believe in this life.